소는 자기의 마음이다

尋牛圖

1. 尋牛

2. 見跡

3. 見牛

4. 得牛

5. 牧牛

6. 騎牛歸家

7. 忘牛存人

8. 人牛俱忘

9. 返本還源

10. 入廛垂手

심우도

1. 소를 찾다

2. 소의 발자국을 본다

3. 소를 본다

4. 소를 잡아 고삐를 단다

5. 소를 먹인다

6. 소를 타고 집으로 돌아간다

7. 소를 잊고 사람만 있다

8. 사람도 소도 다 잊어버린다

9. 본래의 자기로 돌아간다

10. 菩薩이 되어서 市井으로 들어가서 濟度한다

Cow Searching Model

1. You search for the Cow.

2. You spot the Cow's tracks

3. You see the Cow.

4. You grab the Cow by its reins and mount it.

5. You rear the Cow.

6. You ride the Cow home.

7. Your Cow is forgotten and you remain.

8. The Cow and you are forgotten.

9. You return to your original self.

10. You become bodhi-sattva, head to the streets, and help others find the Way.

처음에 보는 소는 검은 소이라고 한다. 修道를 하면 검은 소에 흰 점이 하나 생겨 흰 부분이 확대되고 나중에는 흰 소가 된다고 한다. 이것은 自己破壞的(자기파괴적)인 감정이 없어지고 건설적인 사랑의 감정이 성장하는 것이라고 볼 수 있고 肯定的(긍정적)인 힘의 성장이다.

~李東植: 「道와 카운슬링 카운셀러」, 韓國人의 主體性과 道, 一志社, 160-161, 1971.

At first your Cow is black. White spots will begin to appear as you cultivate your Way. The spots will grow larger until eventually you are left with a Cow that is totally white. This is analogous to eliminating self-destructive impulses whilst growing constructive love. And it is the development of positive energy.

~ Lee, Dong-shik, Dao and Autonomy of Koreans, "Dao and Counseling Counselor," 160-161, 1971. [Speech]

草露人生...이 노래를 들었더니 그런 생각이 떠올렸다

한국 음악계에서는 45RPM이란 힙합그룹이 있는데 내가 한국에 처음 왔을 땐 첫 번째 잡았던 앨범은 바로 그들의 1집 올드루키(Old Rookie)이었다. 얼마 전에 2집을 돌아왔는데 올드루키에 비해서는 가사, 음파, 제작 등등 모든 면에서 부족하고 팝(Pop)음악계에 너무나 진입하려고 노력했나 보니까 뭐랄까 그들의 1집에서 힙합의 정수를 진지하게 대표한 모습이 자본주의적인 목표로 도달하기 위해서 두 번째 생각을 할 필요가 없을 정도로 그 모습을 그냥 던져 버려서 내가 팬으로서 배신감을 느낄 수 밖에 없겠 다. 암든 오늘은 오랜만에 1집에서 나온 '생각의 소리'란 노래를 들었는데 물론 이전에 엄청 많이 들어봤지만 왠지 오늘 밤에 홍대 크럽에서 그 노래의 공연을 직접 관찰했던 듯이 매우 감동적이고 되게 선명하게 들었네....그 노래속에 담겨 있는 의미는 내 영혼과 융합하게 되었던 말이다. 아이구 난 왜 이렇게 감성적이냐 싶다. ㅋㅋ 너무 피곤한 것 같다. 더이상 도라이같은 소리가 나오지 않도록 그냥 노래 중에 차례로 3 번째 제이권도(J-Kwondo)의 감동시키는 가사를 여러분들과 나누어 드리고자 한다. 잘 읽으시길 바란다. 

눈앞에서 보이는 쉴새없는 변화

그리고 떨어진 밤하늘의 별과

모든것이 내 머릿속을 통과

그래도 언제나 같은자리 (처음부터 지금까지)

모든것이 변한다 해도 변하지 않은 힙합과 나의 진리

눈을 감으면 내 안의 우주가

눈을 뜨면 우주안에 내가

내 생각 속도에 맞춰 세상은 변화가

재진 세상의 중심의 축

흔들리지 않고 계속 움직여 쭉

기나긴 고통의 발자국 내 랩음악 속에 고스란히

스며드네

흘러가네

지금 이 시간과 이 공간 속에 이것은 힙합이요

바로 음악이니 이것은 각운이요 흐름의 이치니라

다이아몬드 눈송이 내려오는 밤

다이아몬드 같은 눈송이 내려오는 밤에 거리에서는 등이 비뚤어진 아줌마의 빙그레 웃는 미소가 내 눈을 기울였는데 春雪이 내리는 밤 이외에 더 아름다운 시간이 있겠습니까?

가로등에서 나온 태양 같은 빛이 눈송이를 둘러싼 모습이 더 우아하고 두드러지게 보이는데 나말고 하늘에서 제공해 주신 공연을 감상하는 사람도 있겠습니까?

서관의 9:15에 표시하는 탑시계바늘 위에 가라앉은 눈송이 하늘에 다시 날아가 사라진 듯이 마음의 온천에서 흐려온 감동은 발생하지 않았던 것과 다름이 있겠습니까?

이젠 쇼 끝났는데 왜 길에서 쓰레기를 수집하여 인력거를 끌려오는 아줌마가 다이아몬드처럼 활짝 빛나는 자식의 눈도 더 이상 못 보실 수 있겠습니까?

High School Status B-Buster Shizzer

What the fuck man, it's 945 pm on a goddamn Sunday. My highs wearin off from the little bit of weed I smoked today and I'm still at Blockbuster. I'm fuckin sittin my ass down and readin a magazine. This standin bullshits too tirin. Goddamn Angelina Jolie is fuckin tits man. I think I'll read that mag. This is the most luxury I've been privy to all week. Sittin on a cold metal chair with a movie trailer playin overhead four weeks old that I memorized better than the Dicken's two weeks ago and got annoyed with three point five weeks ago, and readin whatever magazine this is with Angelina's fine ass.

Beep Beep

What the F. Who the hell rents videos this goddamn late? Oh how are you doing tonight Sir? Do you need any assistance? Oh I will gladly find that for you. Just hold on for a second and I'll go get it. To get you the fuck out of here. I'll meet you up at the register Sir. Goddamn this guy's a grease ball. He's got some sweatpants with cigarette burns and a dirty ass white undershirt on with yellow pit-stains growin by the minute. Do you have your Blockbuster card with you tonight Sir? No, of course you don't you greasy mother fucker, you probably ate it along with the wallet you never had. What's your last name Sir? Dick, hmm no fuckin comment on that shit. Beep. Beep. Ok Sir, your total is.... What?! you have a coupon? You fucking stingy prick, you can't even afford a measly video rental. Ok Sir, let me just scan that for you quickly. Beep. Beep. Goddamn why isn't this shit workin? Beep. BeepBeepBeepBeep. I'm sorry Sir, this coupon appears to be expired. Oh, you just received it last week? You goddamn liar. That is honestly the one thing I can't fuckin stand, a liar, but I'm too tired for this shit. I apologize for the confusion and I will give you a store credit for this. Beep. Again, I apologize for the inconvenience, here are your movies and have a GREAT NIGHT. Dick head.

Did you just give him a store credit Matthew? Haven't I told you a million times you can't just be giving store credits to whomever you feel like? Are you even listening to me? Hey, where do you think you're going mister? I'm not done speaking to you (yet)....

Yo I'm sorry I'm going on my fifteen. Haha too late bitch, I'm already out the door. Shit I'm stressed man. I gotta get something to chill me out. Hmm, ah! Holy shit, holy shit. I think my boy left his bowl and bud in my whip. Haha ya mother fucker. Lemme get this bowl packed. Goddamn this is some sticky shit. Aight, here we go... Flick, flick.

Welcome to Blockbuster, how can I help you?

Typical Study Abroaders (in Corea)

At all universities here in Korea, or in all countries for that matter, at any given time you may run into the savage beasts otherwise known as study abroaders (homo partius). Just as polluted waters were the unfortunate result of industrialization, study abroaders are the sickening drivel seeping out of the joints of globalization's gastric crevice. They come, they party, they tourist and they go home carrying a sense of accomplishment and a mouth full of, "I really got to know such a different culture; it changed my life," and a hand full of the same bloody bollocks when it comes time to fill out a CV or resume.

Exchanges are not the response of colleges pure unadulterated philanthropic spirit to provide young men and women with the life changing opportunity of studying in a foreign land, although you'd be hard pressed to find another reason upon entering your local uni's study abroad office. On the contrary, they are merely a symptom, and a puss filled Everest one on an adolescent Mikhail Steinberg's petroleum status nose, a code red, danger Will Robinson and Gary Coleman example of the commodification of what education has become today.

If you want a life changing experience go the fuck to Patagonia and kick it for real. Don't come to Korea, or Belarus, or China to drink and party with some other foreigners. I'm sorry that's not what I'm trying to say. Rather, come, spend your money, have a blast, but don't, I repeat don't go home and say it changed your life. Yes, now that's what I'm trying to convey. Understand your reason for being in another country regardless of the fact that you may attend a university class or two, is solely for entertainment reasons only. You paid your travel agent to set up your itinerary, oops I meant schools study abroad office, so have your fun until your slated return date.

Being a student abroad here in the ROK, and feeling a sense of pity for poor sad sappy heads having trouble having their fun here, I hereby declare this blog to be a place for people to refer to if and whenever they have questions pertaining to how one can make their stay here more entertaining or simply put, how to reduce the hassle of studying in such a foreign place to the point that you'll forget you're even in a foreign land until you go home and tell your friends how much it changed your life. So buckle up, have a safe flight and I'll see you at the aero-port with your newly updated itinerary.